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Posted on 21st Sep at 11:34 AM, with 390,362 notes

nurseblonda:

actual footage of me walking to class in the morning

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Posted on 20th Sep at 2:09 PM, with 421,196 notes

k-lionheart:

themaidenofthetree:

I want you to imagine a ten year old version of yourself sitting right there on this couch. Now this is the little girl who first believed that she was fat, and ugly, and an embarrassment.

This is groundbreaking

Posted on 20th Sep at 2:07 PM, with 19,120 notes

sixpenceee:

Frank Parlato interviewed 3 prostitutes.

Here’s one of them. 

JANE

You’re not the police right?

She hopped into the car, and I told her I would like to interview her and pay her for her time. Instead of what she normally does with a man, she would be paid for just talking. 

As we drove, she said, normally, I just don’t get into a vehicle. I make a man pull it out or make him touch me to make sure they aren’t the police. 

I could tell she was nervous. She was pretty. And soft spoken. A gentle, lean brunette. She would be striking, if not for the signs of wear on her features. A tired, drawn, defeated look. She was 30, she said.

Admittedly, I asked blunt questions. Maybe they were too simple. I wanted to capture her views, to draw her out and at the same time not scare her. 
Why are you on the street tonight?

Addiction, she said, in a soft, halting voice. 
Tell me.
I started on heroin when I was 23. After two years of being clean, I was having a craving to start getting high again. I started smoking crack cocaine over a year ago.
How often do you smoke?
Usually, several times… a dozen times a day. It depends on how much I want to chase. 
How much does it cost?
About $300 a day.
How do you pay for that?
Prostitution, she said, in a whisper. Sometimes, I have guys that know where I live. They come by. I like to have a phone, but right now I don’t, so I have no choice but go on the street.
She explained with a sad note in her voice that she gave her three children up for adoption. She hasn’t seen them in years. 
They deserve somewhere safe, she said, and almost cried. 
How much do you expect to make tonight?

Just a couple hundred. I am not really in the mood to do too much. You get tired chasing.
When is the last time you used?
Half an hour ago.
How much does crack cost?
Nowadays you’re not getting anything nice, unless you at least have $10 and $20 is barely satisfying. $20 is one small blast. 
When do you start craving again?
It last for about 5, 10 minutes then you come down and you’re chasing again.
Are you craving crack now?
A little bit, but I’m a little more nervous too. This is different.
When you are out on the streets, aren’t you nervous too?
I get scared all the time.

Then you do not like your work?
Absolutely not! There is a couple gentlemen, of course. You meet some decent people out here. Sometimes I am sad that I couldn’t have met some of these guys before I was using. If I am not comfortable with someone, if it is a cleanliness thing, I won’t do it. I used to carry a bag with me, with sanitizers and baby wipes and everything. I can’t afford it. The habit took over so much. 
I’ve been robbed. I’ve been raped. You deal with the dates. You deal with the hustlers. You deal with the men that try to take over. There is always somebody trying to take control over what you do. They see me get into a vehicle. As soon as I come home they try to get me to spend with them or whoever they have with them. I know about 40 crack dealers, just on the east side. 

How many men do you see in a night?

It ranges from a couple to, wow … maybe a couple dozen. When I do that, I instantly want to get high, just to take away the way I feel. Most times, I come out because I’m hungry Or something I need or want and after I perform I don’t like the way I’m feeling, so I get high so it just keeps repeating itself over and over. I want to get out, but I guess not bad enough. I’m at the bottom, not as low as I ever have been. I was homeless for two years living in condemned houses. I have a home now.
She told me she had been out three hours that night and had two customers. One she charged $30, the other $20. With him she had unprotected sex, she said. 

Did you ever get a disease from this work?
I believe maybe I have, but I didn’t go get checked. Normally I don’t have sex. It is just oral. 

Where do you get crack?
I normally go to a phone and have them deliver.

Could you get a regular job?

That habit would not allow me. It consumes you. It consumes your mind, your body, everything. It’s all that matters at that moment.

How do you make money in the daytime?
Most of the time I have my door cracked and most of my guys know that if I have my door cracked, I am available.
She asked me to drop her off at her apartment. I paid her $30 for the interview. She said I was welcome to talk to her again, but the people inside her apartment tonight would be scared that I was a police detective. If I came back, she would come outside. 

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Posted on 20th Sep at 2:04 PM, with 558 notes
"My voice cracks every-time someone asks about you, and I can’t blurt out a word without crying. My hands are constantly shaking and I’m scared to look anywhere else but the pavements I walk on. I want to tell you I love you so badly, but we don’t talk like that anymore and the words are stuck in my throat and I’m choking, and i can’t breathe. These dark circles beneath my eyes are purple and blue and I never sleep much anymore, and you’re under my skin killing me from inside out but, No matter how deep I cut, or how many pills I swallow, you will always be like heroin shooting up through my veins into my heart and I can’t get you out of my system."
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Posted on 20th Sep at 2:03 PM, with 148,967 notes
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A Somali student, on what has surprised her most about the United States. (via africandogontheprairie)
Posted on 20th Sep at 2:00 PM, with 48,651 notes
"Only a bad musician blames their instument"
My music teacher, when I said I couldn’t play because my recorder was broken. It was literally in two pieces. (via pandyssian)
Posted on 20th Sep at 2:00 PM, with 23,955 notes

spicyshimmy:

i want someone who will sit on a rooftop with me at 3 am and not push me off the roof when i point to the stars and romantically whisper ‘space: the final frontier…these are the voyages of the starship enterprise…’

Posted on 20th Sep at 1:59 PM, with 27,026 notes
bongfucker:

8bitfuture:

GIF: Evolution of the iPhone

at the rate it’s going now it’s just gonna end up as a fucking sheet of paper
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bongfucker:

8bitfuture:

GIF: Evolution of the iPhone

at the rate it’s going now it’s just gonna end up as a fucking sheet of paper

Posted on 20th Sep at 12:57 PM, with 7,635 notes

snowstorms-and-oceans:

NO MOM I DONT CARE IF IM WEARING A ‘BOYS’ SHIRT
LIKE HOW THE FUCK DOES A SHIRT HAVE A GENDER HOW DOES THAT HAPPEN???

Posted on 20th Sep at 12:56 PM, with 77,801 notes

lanadel-grunge:

wheremythoughtsare:

Do not ground your child because you caught them putting a cigarette flame to their wrist.

Do not discipline your child because they have cuts on their thighs.

Do not threaten to put your child in a mental institution because their only escape is self-harm.

Do not teach your children that if they open up to you about the scars on their bodies, the only thing they will get in return is punishment.

my mum needs to take a fucking good look at this

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